Sometimes I feel like i’m a bad carnival ride, the one that seems to always need repairing. I get tired of this feeling and as a believer in God the creator that is, I look to the word for encouragement, sometimes in my pain I can’t seem to find any comfort in the word, but I do when i talk to my heavenly Father directly. I say nothing fancy, i just tell him that this is too much and i know that he allows me to walk this walk because I am strong but it gets to be too much all the same. Its amazing how God shows just when you’re about to go berserk. What a mighty God we serve…
On Thursday evening i felt that funny feeling i get in my kidneys when something is about to happen so i said what i normally say, God i don’t really need any pain today, some times it works and other times not, it didn’t work this time. Sleep that night was very uncomfortable but i woke up the next morning feeling good, i dropped the kids to catch the bus but it was in doing that i started to feeling nauseated and sick so i went back home and got into bed and stayed all day with pains in my right and left kidney, it is not easy to deal with add to that lower back pains which up to yesterday was excruciating! Enter today and my pain has subsided much.
There was a time when I would’ve become so depressed about being sick all the time but as I grow stronger in Christ, I can do this, its not easy but to quote Psalms 121
“I look up to the mountains— does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth! He will not let you stumble; the one who watches over you will not slumber. Indeed, he who watches over Israel never slumbers or sleeps. The Lord himself watches over you! The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade. The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon at night. The Lord keeps you from all harm and watches over your life. The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever.”
Psalms 121:1-8 NLT
Do enjoy the beauty that is today☀️